2003-05-30 - 9:25 a.m.

This weekend should be action-packed, as usual. Tonight I'm going to see Etta James with C and his mother. I'm psyched to experience some new (to me) music and Etta sounds like a very cool lady. Can't wait! I am a bit nervous, though, because C is bringing his Mom to my condo to pick me up! I know she'll only likely be there for like a minute or two before we have to leave, but I made sure to clean it extra thoroughly last night. Why am stressing out about this? No offense, but their place is not super-immaculate by any stretch (it's not filthy, just a comfortable place). So, all the more reason for me to chill. I guess it all just comes back to my desire to please and appear that I am worthy. Ugh, that sounds so subservient.

Tomorrow C has the kids so I can do my stuff - change the sheets, do laundry, bring all of my clothes to the dry cleaner, run errands at the drugstore and stuff. Tomorrow night I want to try a recipe (not sure which one yet) out on him. I watch "30 Minute Meals" just about every night and even have the accompanying recipe book, so I have lots to choose from. C told me that he loves when I cook for him because I try to make everything perfect (there I go again!) and he feels pampered. I like to cook for us because I never, ever cook an actual meal just for myself and I really do like to eat actual home-cooked meals every once in awhile. Then, I'm hoping to introduce him to this great band, The Spurs. I think he'll really like them, even though they're not his usual genre (hardcore). But, they do songs about drinking and are awesome musicians. I've only seen them once, and have been dying to see them again. Should be fun!

Sunday afternoon is another show, this time an all-ages one in New Hampshire. We've been to this place a couple of times, both for Sunday afternoon all-ages shows (but we oldsters can drink!) that we took C's daughter to. This time, it should be great as my brother's band is playing with a few other bands I like. I haven't seen my brother's band since March! Part of the reason is because C got annoyed that last time because the lead singer always looks at me, smiles and refers to me during this one song. I find it flattering but C thinks it's disrespectful. I guess I see his point but the guy's not sticking his tongue down my throat or anything. Still, I plan to be nowhere in his line of sight during that song, just to keep the peace.

That's about it for the weekend plans, but it seems like enough to me. I just need to make it through this godforsaken workday. I didn't bring my gym stuff, even though I should have since I didn't go Monday because of the holiday. Still, there is something liberating about not having to lug my stuff on the subway on a Friday. I think I'll invent an errand or two or perhaps take a walk outside, if it's nice enough.

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